* * * Not Enough Stars In The World Can Do This Book Justice * * *
Losing Hope by Colleen Hoover
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*5 Incredible, I-Live-You, Stars*
Book 1 in this series is Hopeless (my review for this can be found here - http://addicted2b00ks.blogspot.co.uk/...)
“I can't explain to you how perfect this girl is. And when I say perfect, I mean imperfect, because there's just too much wrong with her. But everything wrong with her is everything that draws me in and makes her perfect.”
Losing Hope is Hopeless from Dean Holder's point of view and that made me very very nervous.
I should have known to trust Colleen Hoover because she did not dissappoint! This felt like an entirely new story with references to Hopeless rather than a re-hash of a story. I absolutely LIVE this book!
In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery.
Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years. But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, even greater remorse would overwhelm him…
Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends. In Losing Hope, bestselling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs
I'm going to, where possible, keep this review about Losing Hope and limit my references to Hopeless but this may be impossible!
Dean Holder blames himself for his Sister Lesslie's suicide. He also hates her for putting him through the aftermath of suicide, none of which we really find out about in Hopeless.
Dean Holder blames himself for Hope being taken from under his nose when she was a young girl. He watched her cry on the pavement, he watched her hurt and he watched her get into a car with a stranger, never to be seen again.
Dean Holder blames himself for not protecting Lesslie and Hope, for allowing them to hurt and doing nothing to take it away.
Dean Holder thinks he is completely Hopeless.
“But I’ve learned over the past year what it really means to be able to
miss someone. In order to miss someone, that means you were privileged enough to have
them in your life to begin with.”
I don't know if I felt more emotionally involved in this story as I always find it difficult to listen to/watch a man hurt emotionally or if it really was just more emotional. Whatever it was - I hurt, I ached, I cried and I broke my heart over and over again.
This is the first book in a long time that has touched me so much that I've been reduced to tears. I'm talking BIG, FAT, UGLY tears and body wracking sobs. I'm sure my mum thinks there is something mentally wrong with me after witnessing me reading the last 10% of this book.
There are several hilarious moments in this novel - laugh out loud funnies:
“I call her Val because it's short for Valium and I always tell her she needs to take that shit by the bucketful. I wasn't lying when I said she was fucking crazy"
There is no question about recommending this - it is a MUST READ. Prepare to be emotionally spent - Over and Over.
You will never be the same again but it is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO worth it!